Limbo

Not the dance. That edge state where you’re neither here nor there. Stuck in limbo.

I spent much of last month healing and resting. The endless grind of clinical oversight removed, days became cycles of feeding, sleeping, reading, and – occasionally – playing computer games.

Oh, and thinking about writing. The brain fog made for a lot of false starts and lost threads but I think I’m on the right path now.

Status

I’ve been disquieted by the new Ishmael books – especially the first one. Too much flipping about trying to find the story, not enough story. Thanks to a friend, I’ve worked through some of the issues and I think I like where we’re going.

Wizard’s Cat? Yeah. No idea. I don’t have enough clear brain space yet.

What Am I Reading?

Everything. Over 40 books in September. I recommended M C Burnell’s The Spider’s Friend in my newsletter a couple of weeks ago. I spent some time catching up on new releases and explored some new authors. (By “new author,” I mean somebody I haven’t read before – they’re getting harder to find.)

Seth Ring’s Titan series hit all the right notes for me in litRPG this month. A simple tale of an uber-rich guy stuck in a total emersion tank to heal his unique-but-potentially-deadly physiological condition. As one does. The plot revolves around learning the nature of the game, revealing layers within layers as Thorn and his colleagues learn about the world and their places in it.

As always, the characters drew me in. Thorn’s humanity – in spite of not being human – kept me turning pages and burning through the ten volume series.

But don’t take my word for it. Grab a sample. See what you think.

An aside: I’m always on the look out for a good series so I get drawn into litRPG. I also only read self-published works, so – more litRPG. I’m always on the lookout for good sf/f self-pubs, but finding new ones to recommend is getting harder. The downside of reading more than a book a day, I suppose. I suspect the rate will drop as I become more engaged with writing than reading. Something I’m looking forward to.

Looking Ahead

Mid-October takes me to the 90-day mark after treatments ended. The radiation and chemo have continued to influence my body so we’ve been waiting for it to run its course before I have my next screening exam. That’s expected to happen around the end of the month. That’s when I find out the answer the the most pressing question: What’s next?

I’ve got things I want to do, things I need to do, and things I’m pretty sure won’t happen.

For the moment, I’m stuck here in limbo taking short walks, trying to eat normally again, and letting my brain chew on story-telling time so I’ll be ready when it comes again.

Until next month, safe voyage.

September Sigh

The recuperation continues very slowly. I’m still not able to eat normally, but I’ve stabilized my weight loss. Now I just need to rebuild my stamina.

Status

I’m picking away at the first new Ishmael book. It’s going slowly because I have zero focus, but I’m using more and more brain on it. I think it’ll be worth it.

Wizard’s Cat is still on hiatus. Even if I had it done, Tom Tylerson is working on a long term project and wouldn’t be available to narrate until mid 2023 at the earliest.

What Am I Reading?

I’m still burning through books – 174 so far this year, 41 in August. Lots of series. A ton of litRPG stuff. I’m reading some more Michael G. Manning now but I’m going to recommend Honor Raconteur’s Case Files of Henri Davenforth series this month. I finished the last book a week ago but I keep thinking about it.

Basically a portal fantasy where the main character portals into a steampunky/fantasy not-Earth world and uses her FBI training to help the local magical examiner solve a series of cases. The characters are first rate. Fascinating world-building. Intriguing mysteries.

But – as always – don’t take my word for it. Grab a sample of book 1, Magic and the Shinigami Detective and see for yourself.

Looking Ahead

For the first time since mid-June, I don’t have back to back doctor appointments. Even after treatment stopped, I’ve been receiving IV fluids three times a week to help flush out my system. It’s nothing strenuous. It just means I’ve been hitting the infusion center for 90 minutes three times a week since the end of July. Add in the various other doctors, dietitians, and therapists, there haven’t been many days where I could just sit. That’s finally ended.

This month I should be able to nap, read, and write (I hope) without having to worry about what doctor do I need to see that day. I’m looking forward to some quiet, healing time.

Thank you all for you kind words and well-wishes. It means a lot.

Until next month, safe voyage.

Progress

The first round of treatment ended last week. These next two weeks will probably be worse than any of the treatments as my body reacts to the aftermath.

“Survive Today” still seems to be the best approach.

Status

All writing related work is on hold pending some kind of recovery. Ishmael’s call is getting stronger. I’m looking forward to digging into that story again.

What Am I Reading?

I’ve read a lot of so-so stuff over the last month. The most memorable of them is Rachel Neumeier’s Tuyo, which I recommended to my newsletter a couple of weeks ago. I haven’t found the confluence of character and world building excellence since M C Burnell’s Foreign Sorcerer series.

That said, I’ve quite enjoyed Michael G. Manning’s Art of the Adept series. It begins with Choice of Magic and follows the career of a young wizard through some dark and twisty passages toward his goal of mastery. It’s basically a coming of age story – with wizards, fae, and – yes – a cat.

Maybe grab a sample and see what you think.

Looking Ahead

I’ve been warned that these first couple of weeks after treatment tend to be the worst. My experience so far supports that claim. I won’t get into the nitty gritty except to note that it is both nitty and gritty. I’m not getting enough calories in a day but the positive spin on that comes from not having my body being broken down by radiation and chemo. I don’t actually need as much this week as last.

The next big milestone is new imaging in October. We’ll see if one course of treatment is sufficient. I’m hoping it will be but I’m trying not to put too much faith in it.

Have I mentioned that Ishmael is calling me? Yeah. We’ll see if I can answer him any time soon.

In the meantime, safe voyage.

NL